Jul. 15th, 2019 09:58 pm
(belated) Sunday six
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likealeafonthewindWow, I knew I'd kinda gone missing on DW but I didn't realize it's been a whole month. Oops? (Anyone who knows me from tumblr knows that I occasionally will drop off the map for awhile and then come back but to all the rest, uh, yeah, that's a thing for me.) So....part of the reason I disappeared is that I got sucked in Nirvana in Fire - binged the show, started reading the novel, joined the DW community, considered going back onto tumblr to reblog pretty gifs, started plotting out fic, started writing fic. Yeah....
Anyway, onto the Sunday Six! So, the reason I haven't been posting these snippets is because I've been almost exclusively writing my fic for wipbigbang, and it's gotten to the point that I'm worried about either spoiling it too much or that the snippets I can post are kinda boring on their own, because they're from scenes that serve as more worldbuilding and plot connecting than anything really exciting. (Also I'm not entirely sure I can post snippets from this fic before the bang ends? Shhh, nobody tell the mods.)
So instead, here are6 7 lines from a MCS/Jingyan NiF fic that may or may not ever get fully written.
A realization leaves him shaken to his core: Jingyan’s changed. He’s not the Jingyan that Lin Shu had known all those years ago, the one who was bright in soul and pure of heart, who made a promise to find an impossible pearl for a friend. He hasn’t been that Jingyan in probably the entire time that Mei Changsu has known him. But he hadn't seen that. He’d looked at Jingyan and seen only his old best friend, who he would tease and pull into pranks, who would go along with anything and everything he’d suggested with a good-natured huff and a roll of his eyes, who’d always say “only because it’s you, xiao-Shu.”
He can’t bring himself to look at Jingyan as Meng-dage comes to help support him down the steps of the Palace. He doesn’t want to see what Jingyan thinks of him now—of Mei Changsu, of Lin Shu. He hadn’t ever wanted Jingyan to find out, but especially not in this way. He thinks that he might just shatter to pieces if Jingyan hates him, and he must, because his childhood friend has become the very thing that he hates: someone who manipulates and uses people for their own purpose.
Anyway, onto the Sunday Six! So, the reason I haven't been posting these snippets is because I've been almost exclusively writing my fic for wipbigbang, and it's gotten to the point that I'm worried about either spoiling it too much or that the snippets I can post are kinda boring on their own, because they're from scenes that serve as more worldbuilding and plot connecting than anything really exciting. (Also I'm not entirely sure I can post snippets from this fic before the bang ends? Shhh, nobody tell the mods.)
So instead, here are
A realization leaves him shaken to his core: Jingyan’s changed. He’s not the Jingyan that Lin Shu had known all those years ago, the one who was bright in soul and pure of heart, who made a promise to find an impossible pearl for a friend. He hasn’t been that Jingyan in probably the entire time that Mei Changsu has known him. But he hadn't seen that. He’d looked at Jingyan and seen only his old best friend, who he would tease and pull into pranks, who would go along with anything and everything he’d suggested with a good-natured huff and a roll of his eyes, who’d always say “only because it’s you, xiao-Shu.”
He can’t bring himself to look at Jingyan as Meng-dage comes to help support him down the steps of the Palace. He doesn’t want to see what Jingyan thinks of him now—of Mei Changsu, of Lin Shu. He hadn’t ever wanted Jingyan to find out, but especially not in this way. He thinks that he might just shatter to pieces if Jingyan hates him, and he must, because his childhood friend has become the very thing that he hates: someone who manipulates and uses people for their own purpose.