Oh yes, it will be a very painful process! Shen Wei will have to pain-stakingly rebuild his self-image from the ground up, and despite all of Zhao Yunlan's efforts, he has never quite managed to believe that he is a person worth anything beyond his ability to be a weapon in defence of those who can't protect themselves.
He will almost certainly do some extremely foolish and self-destructive things in an attempt to act as he always has... in effect, he will still be trying to throw himself on grenades now that he no longer has the power to survive such a thing.
I actually feel sorry for Zhao Yunlan just thinking about this. Not that Zhao Yunlan has ever been that much better. Which I am sure Shen Wei will be the first to mention. :-)
And maybe in the end, Shen Wei would discover that he has actually developed some entirely new and different powers based on light energy. And at that point he would *not* immediately come out of retirement and start sacrificing himself again, because he has truly learned to live as a person, and for the first time in his life, he is truly happy, and isn't willing to give that up.
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Date: 2019-03-27 12:08 am (UTC)He will almost certainly do some extremely foolish and self-destructive things in an attempt to act as he always has... in effect, he will still be trying to throw himself on grenades now that he no longer has the power to survive such a thing.
I actually feel sorry for Zhao Yunlan just thinking about this. Not that Zhao Yunlan has ever been that much better. Which I am sure Shen Wei will be the first to mention. :-)
And maybe in the end, Shen Wei would discover that he has actually developed some entirely new and different powers based on light energy. And at that point he would *not* immediately come out of retirement and start sacrificing himself again, because he has truly learned to live as a person, and for the first time in his life, he is truly happy, and isn't willing to give that up.